D is for Decisions.
I chose to write about decisions because I wanted o to reflect on how much they can affect every aspect of your life and also other people's lives. Also, some seemingly small decisions can still have a big impact on your life, and it is important to really consider the value of each and every decision we make each day. Are we going to read, or study, or watch TV, or go to the gym, or help our friends, or make that little bit more effort in our daily tasks? It may seem like just one little decision, but putting forth that little bit more effort to make positive decisions really can make a huge difference, and will give you the motivation to continue heading in this positive direction. It's a case of just knowing where your weaknesses lie, and making a conscious effort to overcome them little by little.
Well, what about those crazy big life-changing decisions? Who to marry, where to live, what career path to take... This kind. That was me just under two years ago. My now husband asked me to marry him. This meant moving from Europe to the US, adapting to life in America, turning down my plans to study for my masters in France, finding a new job.. and the rest. I love love love my husband (even though it still feels strange to officially call him 'my husband' now), but I still wonder what my little life would be like if I had made a different decision. I would probably still be living in France studying, but how would I feel? How would the masters programme be going? Where would I be going with my career? Who would I have met? What else would I be doing? So many questions which I will never have answers to. And if I had made the opposite decision, I would never know how my life would be in the US. Would we have ever married? Would we have married after my masters? Would I have regrets? I remember talking to a lady a few months before my husband proposed, and she was from the Czech Republic, with an American husband. She was telling me how who you marry really decides which direction your life will take. In my case, it really is true.
I am probably one of the most indecisive people when it comes to decisions. I have a mini battle in my head over what to do. I contemplate until I muddle myself up with my options, even for the most inconsequential of decisions. I am terrible. I need to learn to make a decision and accept the consequences, positive or negative. This is my challenge. Lets hope I make the right decisions.